Unfortunate News....

So my mom text me this morning telling me my Uncle Herman had passed away. I felt sad, but the weird part is I haven't cried. For the past week or so I have been feeling emotional less. I don't really know how else to explain it but there have been several things that have been upsetting and there have been a few things I should have cried over but...I didn't. I feel the sadness about my Uncle's death but the emotion has shown. Just by looking at me or talking to me you would have never known anything bad had happened.

About an hour ago I picked Natalie up from school and when we got home she was upset at me and started crying and I knew what was wrong but being a mom I asked her anyway. "Natalie what's wrong?" No answer. So instead of getting upset or raising my voice a little bit cause she wouldn't talk to me like I have done in the past (horrible mistake) I just said very calmly, "Ok, go to your room then please." She went to her room and that was that. I was very surprised at myself for being so calm the last couple days. I like this new me because I haven't been losing my temper at all. Very much an improvement since last year. I just don't know about anything anymore. I just don't care about anything anymore. But somehow that just doesn't seem true because I still love my kids and my Matt. But other then that I just don't care. Something is wrong with me and I would like help to fix it. I'd rather not see a shrink though. Matt was messing around with me and said I was bipolar.

I'll figure it out someway. Hopefully Matt will take this more serious when I talk to him when he gets home tonight. Other than that things are going very well at the Price home.